the fault for not changing

"no, i won't change...
no matter how i promise it or how many times i stop myself for being me, no i won't change. this is me... a bitchful sensitive me.
changing me means not being me... means to be a total stranger.
who did you love anyways?
was it me or an idea you want me to be?
i easily get hurt.
at least i'm honest to admit that.
you see it clearly when i'm pissed off.
at least you see through me.
would you rather i become a tv.
switched on to channels you just want to see.
turned off because you grew tired of the same telenovelas you see.
i know people who loved a person however bitch they are.
i see through their blind ways how much they love them.
it's not good.
but at least they know they love them.
do you love me?
the way i am.
however bitch i am.
because if you don't, i don't think changing me will change what you feel.
it will come to an end.
and just like now, you'll throw the faults to me.
the fault for not changing..."