happy birthday to me! =)

family, friends... this is the happiest birthday ever!!!

thank you so much for sharing a bit of yours to mold my thirty one years.

hope you have the time to listen and understand the words of this song. it says it all.

love you all and God bless! happy birthday to me! =)

do it all over again

i'm loving this song. sung by sapphire leia as claudine during the brittania high stint in the year 2008. she's the mean girl in the series but i like her. hahaha!

Maybe in the years to come, I'll truly understand.
Though I try to hold on tight, I feel it slipping through my hands.
Time can fly so fast, they say, when you are having fun.
So why does it feel like its over before it's begun?
Now I don't know where I will go from here,
'cause without you I'd rather go nowhere.
You, you colour my days, I'll treasure this memory always.
You brought light to the darkness,
You brought rain to the desert.
You got under my skin and I'm believing in myself again.
You have changed my direction,
So much love and affection
and I will keep this safe still deep within,
and given the chance I know I would do it all over again.
who knows what the future holds,its written in the stars.
The letting go is how you know if something's really yours.
i know there's a road ahead
The journey will go on
But if letting go is so right why does it feel so wrong
Yeah, now I don't know where I end and you begin
It's hard enough breathing, now I'm breathing in
You, you colour my days
I'll treasure this memory always
You brought light to the darkness,
You brought rain to the desert.
You got under my skin and I'm believing myself again.
You have changed my direction,
So much love and affection and I will keep this safe still deep within,
and given the chance I know I would do it all over again.
Ooh do it all over again
Yeah, now I don't know where I end and you begin
It's hard enough breathing, now I'm breathing in
You, you colour my days
I'll treasure this, I'll treasure this
And I'd do it all over again
Yeah, Yeah, Do it all over again
You have changed my direction
So much love and affection
But given the choice I know I would Do it all over again
You, ooh
You, so much love
Do it all over again
Ooooh
I would do it all over againYeah, Yeah, Oh

=)

be careful what you wish for...

they say that when you finally reach your dream, it'll be some kind of a bliss... kind a touching the clouds and feeling the soft breeze of air... saying, "this is life!"

i'm a foot away from it... reaching a dream... grasping something that i have been waiting for some years now... and yet why does it feel that i'm in a nightmare. wala pa nga e. but i feel so afraid.

am i in a wrong place? shall i reach it in a wrong time?

"be careful what you wish for..."
this is true. 'cause you might really get it all and some freebies that you wish you wouldn't have or you would not want to go through.

i think this is the second time i went through something like this. sometimes i think to myself and contemplate, is it me??? is the wrong thing is this grand picture is me being in it. i try to convince myself that i somehow deserve to get this great things. but at the end of the day, i doubt myself. what have i done, truly, to have this.

what is it in me that deserves this than others?

well, the thing that scares me the most is having someone ask, "WHY?"... "bakit sya?"...

i'm not sure if i'll be hearing these words again. i'm so frightened that these words will haunt me again. been there... i hold on... but it was not a smooth ride.

sabi nila, don't predict negative things.

"It is learning how to have a heavenly view that helps us to know joy no matter what happens in our lives."

i hope i can learn to do this... have a heavenly view in everything that happens to me. whether it's a good experience or a not so good one.

oh, well. that's just my rumbling for the hour. wala na din ito later. hahaha!